For some reason, time has NOT stood still the way it ought, and here we are five years after that “This time I mean it!” post.

And no, I still haven’t done any performing. I *have* made notes on possible stuff to do, but if that’s all I have to show for five years, something’s wrong. I hate to say it, but I think the problem is mostly just inertia. It takes a lot of oomph to completely switch gears this late in life. And a decent chunk of money, too, since getting enough paying gigs right off the bat is hard/impossible.

I guess a person could just do it on the side — but I’ve never been good at that. I tend to dive head first into the things I want to do. And mostly it’s worked out, so that should give me the “permission” I need to dive back into the pool. But that thought is scary. And, I do like what I’m doing now and don’t want to just toss it by the wayside.

I probably need to figure out a way to have a hobby and just make performing my hobby. Hmmm…